Monday, June 25, 2007

IS

consultation

Had IS rehearsals on the 1st day of school holidays! The first time I practised with Kenneth since PRELIMS. hahah. He's really good la! he still remembers all the steps and all, and is still able to execute them BETTER than me. signz. I'm outshined liao. haha. mdm finally got to watch us, after numerous reminders for me to "grab hold of kenny". haha. yeah..some feedback: don't flick eyes, hold moment, blablablah. and of cuz the breath control part. =x Had group later in the day and went running with vicky after that. Only she ran 10 rounds listening to her ipod while I ran 2 rounds reciting my IS lines. heex.

Tech run on Sat morning.

It was okay, only the tech stuff. heex. jus as long as the actual day goes well (: THANKS CREW. I'm really sry abt all the cuts and scratches from the tree. Like the old tree spoke, "Incurr the wrath of the tree spirit!" LOL. Met huimiin at plaza at 11 and after being sianitified by plaza, we decided to go Lot 1 play acarde and take neoprints! Went back to her house at 2 to meet Carrine and play play play. ~ though we didnt manage to play what we wanted to, due to highly irritating people. =p rushed to the theatre talk at nlb at 4+ and couldn't understand half the things that was talked about.

haha my last week of holidays is really filled with IS drama lahs.

I went to school on a SUNDAY!The day before school reopens.
met beth and kenny in school before cabbing down to ttrp with ms wong. Mrs C was already there with the director of dollhouse who gave the talk the previous day. It was so scary!! The people there are all professioners and we are the youngest there.

The director guy talked for some time and then this guy performed a piece from Kuo's "coffin too big hole too small". Then the director guy gave a lot of comments and asked him to try again in another way.

and before I knew it, "ok next can we have geetha crefield?" like omg thats me lah!!! They then took a 5 mins break for me get ready( ie get cd, tie hair, pin vines on tree) yeah then Mrs C introduce us and the piece and that's it. I'm on. Think I did pretty ok, except the consciousness of some lost consonants and the slight unbalance in the dance.

The audience clapped and the director gives positive comments so I'm happy. (: He mentioned something about emotions coming from an outside stimulus and motivation instead of just coming from within. Some 'only say ouch when you are pinched theory". and something about the focus of the piece being the dance cos the movement is sort of a dance too, instead of the text being the focus. He says something about me having good connection with the rope but need more connection with the tree. yupyup. and a whole lot more which I did not really understand =x lolx

left in the break after watching Mrs C and Ms Wong performened a piece about the relationship and power struggle between mother and daughter. Went to PS and waited for my dad to pick me up. heex. found out that my tree is old, but has a big appetide. nuggets, burger, upsized fries, huge milo, chilli, curry, barbaque and debating whether to get more food! LOL. reached home really late and after chatting on the phone with darling and playing games, I started the month of GP homework at 11PM.

Thursday, March 8, 2007

post prelims

post prelims consultation!
hahah I was being really straight forward and informal for some reason.
Like Yj said I have something behind on my skirt, like paint or something, then I asked "Why are you staring at my butt?" =x
and when they asked about how I feel about viva my instant reaction was "you damn good. ask me about the dance when you're the one cheorographing it!" and he said that he made a note at that point of time that at least I was paying attention to what he's saying! =D
plus when they asked if I like my tree I went on and on about how hard the crew work and that aaron got at least 30 cuts on his arms. =x

yepyep. according to them everything is fine except my voice and projection.
which I already know. hahaha.

Thursday, March 1, 2007

prelims over

Prelims are over!
eh, quite long ago.
we even got back results already.
hahah, the sillylittlegirl got a C, 10/15.
I'm kind of disappointed but not devastated. yupps.
this time the grade spectrum is really huge. I know people getting from 2 to 14/15.
I could have done better. The actual performance wasn't my best run.
I need to work on my voice a lot a lot more.
It is kind of disturbing when you are susposed to be in character, yet you are aware of the very disgusting fact that saliva is flying all over the place and that 5 teachers/examiners are sitting a metre away from you. very disturbing.

For the concept section, which is process work I guess, the word "adequate" came up in all the criteria. I need to be more prepared ya, especially how I kind of blew up viva when yijun asked about the chereography of the dance and how I teach kenneth. I lied through my teeth, making it very obvious that I'm lying. =x hais. perhaps thats why I got a very adequate grade, not here not that. ohwells.

I was the first in the morning in pink studio, and a mistake I made was that I did not warm up at all. Maybe that's why my voice sucks even more than usual, cos it was 8am in the morning. WARMUPS! speaking of which i didn't do physical warmups too. =x now to think of it, how stupid is that. hahah

Actually the whole morning before the performance was spent piahing for viva lahs. and during that period of time I prepared more than I ever did. just shows how inadequately prepared I am for viva huh?

Performace was ok, the tree helps. The tree and the curtains and everything does make me feel as though I am on stage, with my magical tree. Thanks so much to crew. The space is seriously limited though. My rope almost hit the examiners. hahah but there were parts where the audience laughed during theasthai, yet the 5 of them did not laugh AT ALL. It's kind of disappointing, are examiners susposed to stay serious and everything no matter what? Thats another issue, is that I am aware of the examiners and their responses DURING the performance, is that ok? am I going out of character? I think some parts were rushed, and there are moments of stillness as well. There are also parts where I know I am not breathing as I speak and that my voice is not projected. well, maybe cos the room is so small and I'm so close to the examiners? I dunno.

felt super nervous before the performance, cos I was the first in pink on the first day and they tend to use the first one as a benchmark. felt super nervous after the performance because I know I am going to screw up the viva. well, viva went ok, except the YJ questions and that my cuecards are in my file and I didnt even open the file at all. So much for preparation. hahah so it was basically all crapping spontaneously, mostly about the piece and characterisation instead of the devising. yupyup. They really ask like ALL the questions possible to ask, so that means lots more preparation for each individual questions the next time!

(sidenote: feel so weird blogging and reflecting on this so long after it. )

Thursday, February 22, 2007

prelims tml!!!

PRELIMS IS TOMORROW!!!

ehs. actually I'm rather satisfied and okay with my text bits. (:
mdm even said good process work yesterday during consultations!
despite the fact that I missed a chunk of lines, kindly pointed out by YJ
though they said it was well-covered (:

that makes it twice I've missed lines. yesterday and during the actual theasthai.

haha CREW ROCKS. J1s rocks. Roxanne, cheryl who were doing my tree..claiming that I'm going to get the best tree. Its so much work, cutting chicken wire and stuff and they all got cuts on their bodies!!! =(

and my dearest darling got like 30 cuts and scratches on his arms lah! including those loong long deep deep ones. OMG. seriously i think it hurts me more to see him like that lahs. and the worst part is he doesn't even care about himself, jus want to finish my tree efficiently and effectively.

haiz..to all these wonderful people..I feel so bad.
need to get u guys something...by tml! hahah..
1)Roxanne
2)Cheryl
3)Kenneth
4)Aaron (this one need more time. can wait. hahah)

Tuesday, February 13, 2007

finally..

I finally complete the piece! with all the blocking.
The library scene now is kind of err BIG.
yupps. big elaborate movements and gestures
and MUCH use of space.

there are some new things such as:
I love the "chasseeeeee" him out part!
look at feet: barefeet
heavy leather boots: tried on yijun's boots!
tree voice: "No I'm not!"

thinking back, what an achievement! change of skill so last minute and I actaully kind of settled everything already! Now what's left is to PRACTISE.

I need to take note of my articulation and stuff. Sometimes, especially when I get excited as the silly little girl, I can't even make out what I'm saying.

Librarian? How to pronounce?

oh and rope movement and branches gestures got to be more precise. dance needs to be cleaned up.

saw kathy's and elina's piece..they're really good..
had lotsa fun with elina and lesley. Lesley was playing a little girl too, and we were playing together in the playground and I showed her the tree. Then elina (the tree spirit) came out. haha and we played catching too! xD

Thursday, February 8, 2007

dance

yay yay I got a dance partner!! (:
Kenneth is really really good. He learned the whole day and remember it in less than 40 mins! AND dances better than me already. what to say? ji dan. hahah too easy for him liao. but I gotta work at it!! get all the movements precise and keep to the timing and beats. prelims getting nearer and nearer. I'm scared.

tree movements! I think I need to think of reasons and significance for every dance move liao. hahahs. swaying of branches etc. and the girl's runs, jumps, rolls, spins and rope. (:

I like the dance though, although it is really simple, the little girl's hyperness of running and jumping around kind of contrasts with the tree's more angular movements. There is a sense of "difference" yet the stong connection between them is definately there.

I like the fact that the tree takes the skipping rope away from the girl, (that part kind of connects with my earlier rope sequence) and put it gently back, because the rope is no longer just something that belongs to the girl, but another connection and symbol. There's something about the giving and taking. Does the rope symbolise love? It is also something about the tautness and strength, bad times, etc.

I love the effect that at the end of the dance too, everything go back to the usual place and the audience is left with the lingering feeling of "did that just happened?", while the girl go straight into hyper mood, "How are you?" followed by her story telling. Speaking of which, I have to polish up that part too, as well as fix the rope sequence in front. I need to work out the last sequence after the library story. Somehow the last part of the way I did it in Theasthai seems boring to me. Plus the prop. the tree itself.

gosh so much work. How am I going to build that in less than 2 weeks???

Sunday, February 4, 2007

you know who you are

You know who you are

You who quietly caught my eye
You who caused me to smile
You who came over to sit by the side
And stayed for more than awhile.
You who met me the very next day 'cos like me
You just couldn't wait
Now here we are--a lifetime of loving away
My friend, companion, soul-mate

Now if this I've never let you know
It's not because I never wanted to
I just assumed you've always known
Because you take my love for granted too
But it's been so long
And it's been so good
And we've come so very very far
So this little song says that words that I should have to you
And you
You know who you are

You who brightened up my darkest days
You who taught me to share
You with the patience that changed my bad ways
And showed me how much you cared
You who opened a door in my heart
To allow the light of love in
So much so in spite of our time spent apart
I still feel like love's just beginning

And now I want to let know
You've given me as reason to go on
But if I should be the first to go
You have to promise me you'll carry on
'Cos it's been so long
And it's been so good and we've come very very far
Let this little song say the words that I should have to you
Sweet you…
You know who you are.

botanical gardens

went botanical gardens on friday,
with the intention to stare and to dance with trees =)
but..

I got really really sudden bad gastrics that I couldn't walk.
and it was like 8pm by the time I reached there after combat class.
so i just laid there watching the tree branches and leaves.

I couldn't choreograph a dance!
trees brances just sway and sway in the wind

what about my 3 minutes+ dance!!!

ahhhhhhhhh
and the song is too romantic lahs
for the love of a silly little girl.

helppp. what to tell mdm later?

Thursday, February 1, 2007

omg I need to come up with trees movements and dance by Monday!
so much for nol tml, project superstar on sunday and maths test on monday.
I need to go botanical gardens!
like erm today. after dep.
hahah hope he can go with me..=/

movement props=skipping rope, hula hoop

dance music-dick lee's "you are the one"
stef's "the moment"
romantic song
3 mins +! oh man!!!
maybe I should stop ponning pe =X

Sequence
-skipping rope movement with text
"This tree is very old already...the old ones are always the funny ones"
-tree dance
-text
"How are you?.."

Wednesday, January 31, 2007

movement

1st consultation today!
did the theasthai piece again, for the 1st time after theasthai in actual performative space.
I think something was not there. The magic of the girl.
ok my fault for not really reheasing =/

I'm susposed to imagine that the tree is 10 times bigger and I am 5 times bigger.
meaning gesture and hand movements got to be BIG.
ie the "skin all cracked" got to use the whole arm to move not just the wrist.

movement props:

skipping rope
-start by skipping normally.
defined movements.
pulling of rope-->tension-->emotions

EMOTIONS
LOVE. totally involved in tree.

hola hoop

hopscotch

the feather thingie malay boys kick

tree dance
PLS KRIT! PLS PLS..
-observe movement of trees (w/o wind)
-angularity, awkwardness
-flow, smoothness
-roundness, circular quality
-chinese folk dance
-rolling on floor
-jumps

Tuesday, January 30, 2007

=x from someones blog

One tiny size girl (PETITE I MEAN) did the SILLY LITTLE GIRL AND THE TREE!Well I think she did pretty well protraying the girl, I mean the girl has to be somehow normal-like yet weird at the same time.

There's this girl like acting about the cons on petite/skinny-ness in the modern world and MAN SHE SHOULD GET SOME NIPPLE TAPES ehem I mean some binder OR some silicone stick on bras, it'll help honeh.Gosh those nipple don't look good under the harsh bright lights.Another girl called Viki, DAMN SHE'S SOOOOOOO GOOD IN AUDITION.Frigging funny y'all with the red shawl, the red umbrella, godamn she's funny as hell.Elina and her partner in THE IMPORTANCE OF BEING EARNEST,it was funny too with the accent and all, but I don't like the acting of her partner.No i'm not being biased here.O.M.GI know you totally have to be articulate, but BENVERPOOT and I couldn't stop giggling at some SPIT SPEWING ACTORS unnecessary parts I mean.Seriously we were totally blessed the whole night cause we sat 2 rows away from the stage.2 girls worth mention I can't remember their names but both were SUPERB,FANTASTIC,AWESOME,GRIPPING!Well, that's practically the vocabulary I can think of right now about them.But both were so damn good they put the rest (excluding Elina of course) in shame.But what both girls had in common is that both were potraying disabled characters.CHINA DOLL was pretty good, with HENRYK TAN in it, well he just dance abit and that's about it, but the girl was good and got a nice bod!

OH OH OH!I saw both SHANE AND HENRYK TAN. (they have a super uber long ang moh-ish surname which I can't remember.)Can I say that I'm utterly disappointed by their looks?I mean I know I'm in no position to say anything since I'm not that good looking myself that I have to blur my pictures to prevent giving people nightmares a fright, but hey AT LEAST I'm admiting!Henryk have skin that looked like orange peel okay fine, not so fantastic in looks department in real life.I shall just continue admiring their photoshop pictures from SEVENTEEN magazine.His brother Shane is hotter though,and pfft that Henryk who was directly behind me when we were meeting Elina kept on bumping into me.Like hello I know I'm frigging short but heck,I guess it's the crowd so he's forgiven AHAHAHA!OKAY ANYWAY BACK TO THE PLAYS.Actually I can't remember much anymore cause most of them were boring and totally forgettable.But I remember the MC who was like a row of seat away from me was sitting down with his legs wide open EHEM SITTING INAPPROPRIATELY.Man next time he should sit with his legs closer lor got kids watching leh.AND AND ANDHenrk forgot his lines on stage.He suddenly stop at one point of time and seated and staring on the floor for a good 3 minutes with his forehead and eyes stamped with "OH SHIT/FEAR/TRAUMATISED/OH FUCK/OH CRAP" look.The lights went off THEN he continued with his lines and the lights went on again.I think that's pretty humiliating,but oh well I just got the impression that he didn't memorise his lines well enough or he's plainly just being cocky.

But overall it was fun!HAHA A GOOD NIGHT INDEED.PICS OF HENRYK AND SHANE FROM MY MOULDY SEVENTEEN MAG.I swear their skin don't look like this in real life, so girls don't be disappointed when you see them in real life

slg

12:25 a.m. 2004-04-18 the silly little girl and the funny old tree

watched the silly little gal n the funny old tree:) it was great!
char, lingyi, mad, wanying n mr tang all did a fantastic job:)
lingyi's singing was great! she can sing so so so well:) char was so like a lifelike tree! n i love the part where they were trying to capture the little gal in the box...n the part where mr tang stormed into the library!so funny..

it's so so nice..right from the begining..when those words appear..so meaningful..n the part where the gal was guarding the tree with all her life..touching sia..n the walk! so slow..so calm..across the whole stage..she was real good.

n the lights were cool too..the torches were bright though..shinning right at our eyes! hee..( middle of 4th row)plus the set..at the beginning the tree was artistic:) n then the christmas tree..haha...i love it when the singapore song came on too..there was a time..haha
the questions..what plant dun haf flowers, leaves, grass? mushroom.y r tears salty? y do stones cry? dun fish get tired of swimming? y turtles crawl so slow? y do ppl cut down tree?
n it's sad..i dun wan them to cut down the tree..n they did..they r so mean..i love the tree..
it simply just rox..go theatre alumni! yay!

update: i took it from genn n found out the many meanings behind it So basically. Uncle Jack's bro tells us about the problem Singapore is facing. Ageing population. Then the actors stand infront of the moving lights and move slowly, growing. Just like trees, and people. Going through the walk of life. Slowly growing to mature. Then the tree. Having leaves at bottom. Christmas tree. Yep. Four trees at the side, growing at first, then cut down. Forestation when Sang Nila Utama landed on singapore. Industrialisation. Raffles founded Singapore. "Organised" the place, British people. Then LKY, planting more trees. Flower garden. Government wants to cut down trees. People who love trees are tricked to believe that they won't cut trees down. Girl is placed in box, perhaps the asylum. Thinks she's mad. Then they cut down the tree... The library scene. Showing that people should not always stick to the same old rules. Must be challenged with new stuff. Plus the asking of questions by the tree. Shows that there's no definite way of doing something. One should always try new ways. Adapt and succumb to changed. One shouldn't be too proud. One's success is gained corz of another. "Only when trees dance, is there wind. Wind musn't be too proud". About the A asks B and etc thing. The walking is our journey of life. There's no end. And if there's an end, No one will continue to walk, continue to strive. We do not work towards death. We work towards old age, eternal life. Why are tears salty? Cause they contain bitter feeling. Sour feelings within us. So they come out salty. At the end, replanting occurs. More trees are grown. The new generation of both, trees and humans. One more thing to add. "Tree, old already no use (Lao le bu zhong yong)" Just like humans. When old, what do companies do? Throw u aside, think you''re too old, think you're slow. The problem Singapore is facing. I like this production. also, the 10 minutes walking across teh stage. Shadows... Lights were the sun shining. I thought it cud have been better. The middle part was quite unnatural. Best if it was around the same intensity. Or something. Was great nevertheless. It depicts the looking at the tree from morning to night. As how tang said the scene before, "she comes to look at the tree everyday .

ivle

6:51 p.m. 2004-04-28 taken from ivle the silly little girl and the funny old tree

1) What is the video clip on the old man crossing the road all about?
Answ: He's not only crossing the road but in the process is also going against traffic, against the flow of things, probably against all things modern. You can see him as those people out there - plenty of them, if you ask me - who are overwhelmed with how fast we're moving today and are still trying to come to terms with it.

2) What were those figures doing in the beginning (and the end) of the play?
No, they were not having fits. Its from a Japanese dance form called butoh and this particular move signifies the growth of a plant emerging from the ground until fully grown.

3) Why did the actress take 10 minutes to walk across the stage?
I think she took less than 10 minutes on both nights of the performance. She was clocking 10 minutes during rehearsals! Really, the walk embodies everything about her obsession with the tree and the relationship between them. Its a move from butoh, again, where the emotions and thoughts of the characters are all brought out through the walk. Think along this line: By not moving, everything moves. The changing of lights to represent sunrise to sunset help tell time. Its a bit like time-lapse photography.

4) Why do this play?
In memory of the late theatre legend Kuo Pao Kun who taught me in university. Another name was later added when I found out that Akiko Motofuji, wife of the founder of butoh, Tatsumi Hijikata, had died in October 2003. I had the honor of performing with Akiko Motofuji at the Esplanade in July 2003 when she visited Singapore.

5) Why such an empty stage?
(A) very strong Zen and Buddhist influence in the set design and overall concept of the piece. When a stage is bare, everything is possible. The mind will start to fill up that space. The moving lights placed upstage are a modern representation of the rock lanterns one sees in Japanese gardens. The consumerist society we live in encourages us to 'want' this 'want' that, to empower ourselves with objects of desire. On the flip side, we can strive to ask ourselves what we don't want and to live with only what we need.

6) What's with putting the girl in a box?
You could say it represents an asylum. You could also say it's about trying to put things in order because the little girl, in the eyes of society, is a kind of deviant.

7) What are those jumping people dressed in white? Are they monkeys?
Call them what you want. They are usually known to many as "highflyers" hence they don't walk but "fly".

8) What's with 1971?
That's the year we were committed to making this island a 'Garden City', the year we started Tree Planting Day every first Sunday of November.

9) What happened to the girl? So the tree was cut down?
Its inadvertible the old tree has to go although many would sympathise with it. Coming and going are just cycles in life. The funny old tree may actually be a stubborn old tree, one who resisted change and ultimately paying the price by being rendered obsolete by society.

done by Mr Gary Tang

Monday, January 29, 2007

theasthai

1:15 a.m. 2006-05-21 THEASTHAI

THEASTHAI!!reported to school at 8 to load stuff. The lorry with only 5 ppl this time is fun too:) we were singing elderwise. heh..SRT so rocks. This huge huge sense of belonging just overwhelmed me as soon as I stepped through the door into the right wing. Then there was the dressing room trama. The stupid stupid sofa/couch that's so damn comfortable to sit. I'm so glad that at that time only like 3 other ppl were at the SRT..thks for the concern n stuff..really appreciated..but as usual, madam choose the wrong time to step into the dressing room. :x and sat down on the sofa right next to me. wow. lols.

went out to buy lightsticks almost immediately after that. yupps. found out how limited the space actually is. I totally will fall off the stage lors. Usually I run like 5 steps to the "other tree", jumping up and losing balance..the fact that we can't see where's the edges of any of the board makes it worse. Phew, they cutted all the interludes except the 1st one (and the 2 hours show still end up a 3plus hour one) so had just that tiny bit of time to move about on the stage and position myself (figured out to move more back in the 1st part, so I could take two running steps towards the other tree..which is roughly at the edge there..)

heex..everyone is brillant! although din get to see many people's piece but still..great job everyone:)

yeah and thanks to everyone who came down to support, though most of ur couldnt find the place..heh..huge thanks to u guys!! :D

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8:47 a.m. 2006-05-19 silly little girl (:

The Silly Little Girl!

Family: Mother and Father,
Brother serving NS.
Age:10, Primary 4
FavesFood:Hersleys Chocolates, French Fries
Drink: Ice Lemon Tea
CartoonCharacter: piglet
Best Friend: my funny old tree
Colour: orange

I got full marks for my spelling quiz. The teacher beams at me proudly as she called out my name. But all my classmates didn't clap for me like they do for the others. Some even shot me dirty looks. I can't wait to tell him about my full marks during break. The bell rang, and I was the 1st one of the the classroom. I ran all the way to the far secluded corner of the playground, where the funny old tree is. I love my tree. I can tell him everything and he always listen. He's the only one whom I can trust and talk to. Although he doesnt talk back, I know he is listening. Listening with all his heart and soul. ..

I went to the bubbletea shop on the way home from school and bought Orea Chocolate with pearls. As usual, the house is empty. Father and mother work very late. I hardly see them at all. I stayed up late to wait for them, just to look at them and talk to them. Just like any normal family. But before I could say Hi mum and throw myself at her, mother starts to nag. Have you done your homework? Learnt your spelling? Without even waiting to hear my reply, she starts scolding me for staying up late, telling me how I shouldn't spent so much time playing. They don't understand me! and I don't understand them!! I HATE THEM. They don't love me. They just doesn't bother and care about me. I would rather that father and mother hate me. At least they would have some feelings for me. I ran into my room and hide below the blankets, crying. How I wish Mother and Father would listen to me for once, and not talk so much.

silly

10:06 p.m. 2006-05-15 silly

Haiz..feel exhausted today, especially during times when there's nth to do..I wonder why. Is being the little girl so tiring?

First in pink studio today. Was rehearsing monologue prancing around in my own world when suddenly the door opens and madam walked in. *got a huge shock* lolsThen at the end of the lesson I was suddenly picked to demo in front of everyone. *almost died on the spot* oh wells, at least it was rather ok and I was ok-ly prepared. Was aware of the audience at various parts, I don't know, I'm like looking out for their reactions (ie:laughing)when I'm laughing..thanks everyone for their positive comments and stuff..boasted my morale..heh..although I think it's not that good and u guys are so so much better than me. (OMG ITS THIS SAT!! do not freak out lol)

harr..so is my laughter fake? Is it susposed to be fake in the 1st place? it's complicated. the transition part. also there need to be a transition but yet the switch needs to be obvious. hmm..haizs..ask madam tml. haha..hahaha..heehee..haha..hoho..hahahaa..*think lindis's face today* -laughs- hahahhaha..ROFL.

the weekend

11:59 a.m. 2006-05-15 the weekend.

Missed A for 2.4 hy a bloody 2 or 3 seconds. wadever lors. haha spoil my record. I'm in character during the whole run, going through the lines and everything..yupps..probably help me to run faster:) (and also i didn't count and keep track of the number of rounds I did, so I'm like slowing down to ask the teacher. If not could have sprinted and get an A lah)
heex..after sat's monologue consultation, I guess I'm more confident, thanks Mrs C! haha..I'm also liking the piece even more. Bought the uniform (costume) and I feel great in it, came up with some dancey moves, wondering if they can work. Gonna ask the teachers in 1 hour time. hahahs..I feel like cutting my hair, till around shoulder length just for the monologue..feel that it's too long now..heh shall I?

Mother Day was interesting, went Lot 1 with huimin, shopped for mothers day gifts and took neos. Then went playground with Carrine to play in the afternoon. I don't know, somehow I lie down on the slide, looking up to this 2 huge trees. Their branches intersected, blocking the blue sky. It's damn nice to just lie there looking at the trees and the sky..

the dark night

2:23 a.m. 2006-05-28 the dark night

wadever la. It's 2plus am already and I woke up at 6am today. Real tired after being out the whole day, like from 6plus in the morning to 11plus at night. signs..just that I just don't feel like sleeping.

Sometimes I really hate nights, especially when it's so late and dark and quiet. It can be a conducive environment to study in, but for some reason, I feel really weird tonight. I suddenly become really aware of the surroundings, the quietness of it all. Loneliness. Fear. Fear of the dark. Although mum's in the same room, reading newspapers,also awake. Haiz, I just felt scared, all of a sudden. Fear of the unknown? Sometimes, (like now) I wish the holidays were never here. Going to school definately takes my mind off things and all. haiz. I actually miss school already.

A mixture of emotions. Hyperness and excitement that turn into tears in just 2 seconds. The kind of tears that's unexplainable. I don't understand myself anymore. What's going on? I don't know, just want to let this sudden weird surge of funny feelings and emotions out. Maybe that's why I actually took the trouble to switch on the com to blog, to rant. At this odd hour of the night..