prelims over

Prelims are over!
eh, quite long ago.
we even got back results already.
hahah, the sillylittlegirl got a C, 10/15.
I'm kind of disappointed but not devastated. yupps.
this time the grade spectrum is really huge. I know people getting from 2 to 14/15.
I could have done better. The actual performance wasn't my best run.
I need to work on my voice a lot a lot more.
It is kind of disturbing when you are susposed to be in character, yet you are aware of the very disgusting fact that saliva is flying all over the place and that 5 teachers/examiners are sitting a metre away from you. very disturbing.

For the concept section, which is process work I guess, the word "adequate" came up in all the criteria. I need to be more prepared ya, especially how I kind of blew up viva when yijun asked about the chereography of the dance and how I teach kenneth. I lied through my teeth, making it very obvious that I'm lying. =x hais. perhaps thats why I got a very adequate grade, not here not that. ohwells.

I was the first in the morning in pink studio, and a mistake I made was that I did not warm up at all. Maybe that's why my voice sucks even more than usual, cos it was 8am in the morning. WARMUPS! speaking of which i didn't do physical warmups too. =x now to think of it, how stupid is that. hahah

Actually the whole morning before the performance was spent piahing for viva lahs. and during that period of time I prepared more than I ever did. just shows how inadequately prepared I am for viva huh?

Performace was ok, the tree helps. The tree and the curtains and everything does make me feel as though I am on stage, with my magical tree. Thanks so much to crew. The space is seriously limited though. My rope almost hit the examiners. hahah but there were parts where the audience laughed during theasthai, yet the 5 of them did not laugh AT ALL. It's kind of disappointing, are examiners susposed to stay serious and everything no matter what? Thats another issue, is that I am aware of the examiners and their responses DURING the performance, is that ok? am I going out of character? I think some parts were rushed, and there are moments of stillness as well. There are also parts where I know I am not breathing as I speak and that my voice is not projected. well, maybe cos the room is so small and I'm so close to the examiners? I dunno.

felt super nervous before the performance, cos I was the first in pink on the first day and they tend to use the first one as a benchmark. felt super nervous after the performance because I know I am going to screw up the viva. well, viva went ok, except the YJ questions and that my cuecards are in my file and I didnt even open the file at all. So much for preparation. hahah so it was basically all crapping spontaneously, mostly about the piece and characterisation instead of the devising. yupyup. They really ask like ALL the questions possible to ask, so that means lots more preparation for each individual questions the next time!

(sidenote: feel so weird blogging and reflecting on this so long after it. )